i did 40 ;)
(Source: skinny--inspirations, via theuglygirl)
decemeber 31st
i ate about 20 red rock deli sweet chili and sour cream chips and consumed a mass amount of Smirnoff ice and double blacks
NOTE : i forgot my calorie counting website, but i plan on finding it tomorrow as well as start weekly weigh ins as well as photos
I have waited for this year to come since i was 6
It sounds so lame that this is the year that i have looked forward to most in my life but honestly i don’t even care, at the moment I’m filled with such happiness, and relief, because to be honest id always dreamed of this year but i never actually believed it would come. I have to admit i did think that some things would be different right now, i thought id still be best friends with my old best friend, i thought i would be as thin as i would like, i thought i would have passed class’s and my punctuation and grammar would improve, i would have decided on what i would like to be when i was older, i would have thousands of dollars saved in my bank account, my learner hours would be a lot higher, i would have had my first ‘real boyfriend’ and had sex. What i have realised is the reason none of those things have happened is because i didn’t make an effort to achieve those goals, i just assumed they would fall into place. I’m glad that i have Finlay realized this mistake now while I’m young enough to make a change, i cannot just sit back and hope things will happened, i have to work for what i want. Although i haven’t done & achieved everything i thought i would by now, it honestly doesn’t matter because i can just fix that this year, plus their were so many better things that have happened to me that i never would have thought possible. I find this feeling the weirdest rite now, i am so excited for every second of this year!
happy new year. 2011 - the year of a gap in the thighs, toned stomach, and twiggy arms.
(Source: skinnylittledandelion)
sorry guys !
I’ve been avoiding this blog so bad, i don’t even remember the last time i updated.. life’s been crazy and I’ve been fat, so i was ashamed to come back, but new year, new start right?
i don’t actually remember a time where i didn’t care about my weight, even in grade seven i would never bring my lunch down to eat at break time because i knew that they would judge for eating when i was already larger then them all..
today all i will eat is rice cakes & pineapple, i think that sounds good..
